Of course, I can blame it all on my Dysthimia—but this time I refuse on doing so. I can’t sleep, at all. Must be the guilt that’s killing me, I let go one important person in my life because of my selfishness. But I hope she’ll take it well, she deserves someone way better than my shitty asshole self. With so many things to do, I just can’t fit having a relationship in my schedule anymore. Doing so, is totally unfair on her part. I hope you’ll understand, I know not now, since you’re obviously hurting but someday we’ll see each other on the road and probably laugh all about it.
Add that to one more thing procrastinating led me to, a failed relationship (it’s actually relationships, if we’re going to count this as retroactive).
Anyway, thanks to my jumping thoughts once in every handful of sentences—I’ll now be leading you to a very off the topic discussion. I just got a new tattoo! It was hellishly painful as I placed it somewhere around the appendix area (yeah, that’s the best way to describe it) It was supposedly a Taurus tat, but it ended up looking more like FEU’s emblem. So my next tat would probably be to symbolize my Thomasian side; probably the Aquinas sun, or Athena from AB, or merge them together which will make Apollo furious.
Going back to Procrastinating, I haven’t updated my blog since one of my boss ran across it. It was painfully embarrassing to talk about it through the phone. But now, I’m back. And I’ll probably blog some more, I find it a helpful way into combating this depression thing minus the downers.
Luckily Pareng Google, helped me research the ten tips on how to combat this Mañana habit:
2. It's common knowledge, but it works - go on your diet or exercise routine with a friend. I’m not a lone wolf, in fact I’m probably one of the friendliest guys you’ll ever meet. But whenever I want to do things I’d rather do them alone, otherwise I’ll just keep on yapping about something or anything.
3. Break the task into smaller pieces and reward yourself when you actually finish a piece. It helps to see the light at the end of the tunnel. This would probably work for Twiggy, my pet dog but not me, if I break a chore into parts, I’d just push it on the molding list.
4. Work somewhere outside of home so the usual distractions aren't there. Or make your work area as distraction-free as possible. It would have helped if distraction is not equated with virtually everything.
5. Get started even if it's a gesture. Often, that's the hump that's hardest to hurdle. Well, this one is true. In fact, once I get past the bump, I go on like crazy unless otherwise the jumping thought.
6. Actually look at your to-do list. Take off anything non-essential, and set a time to start on one thing. The size of the list may scare you away. To-do-list don’t work for me. They often end up in the trash bin along my ideas.
7. Talk to yourself, although not out loud if you're somewhere public. Repeat to yourself: "I have set a priority." If you feel pulled to do errands or check e-mail, you have set a priority. I’m afraid if I talk myself into it, I’d reply and give counter arguments not to go through with it.
8. Organize the bills/papers/supplies you need to do your task. You're less likely to wander away if you have everything together. Nice advice. Awesome, in fact, the reason I often snooze things out is when I give myself a reason to stand up.
9. Set a time when you must sit down, and don't allow yourself to do anything else for at least a half hour. You might start out of boredom. Putting myself into isolation is a bad idea, according to my doctor.
10. Figure out a time to do what you need to do and stick to it. As crazy as it sounds, I lift weights before I go to bed. It's the only consistent time I can manage. I’ll try but, I can’t promise.
